The Truth is

I write in a prayer journal every day. I pour out my true emotions and give Him my struggles. It is super important to do that. And then I blog. I try to encourage others through my blogs. Most of social media is encouraging lately. But that gives people a false idea that everyone else is doing well and they are alone in their struggles. So every now and then I like to get very real in my blogs.

I had a down day today. To be honest, I have not been sleeping well lately. I’ m not sure if it is the virus, losing Rex, or all on my mind with starting the practice and promoting the book.

Not much has changed for me day to day due to the virus. Except not being able to hug people or hold my grand babies or see my mama in person other than on her patio six feet away. I’m actually being just as. if not more, social than before, having coffee dates over video chat. (Let me know if you want to meet up).

I’ve been pouring myself into my work. There is lots to do to promote a new business and a book. Lots of details to pull together. But I love that. Maybe too much. I realized that I use overachievement or work as a crutch.

I am trying very hard to practice what I preach about self care. Exercise, regular sleep and routines, eating right, getting dressed every day, cleaning, socializing, meditating. I don’t always accomplish all those things.

I’ve noticed I’m more anxious lately. More down. Less motivated. Irritable. My new take away? That’s ok! It more important to be in touch with what i am feeling and accept it as ok. It’s ok to have down days. It’s ok to not check off everything on that to do list or everything on that self care list. We must sit in our feelings once in awhile. It’s ok to take that nap or go back to bed or just stop trying for awhile.

I read a post today about therapists going through this big pandemic thing alongside their clients. It is so very true. We are all going through this. It wouldn’t be right to pretend we aren’t feeling this too. Somehow we’ve given therapists the idea that they have to have it all together all the time, to be strong always. But we are human too.

We need to give ourselves grace. If we need a nap, take it. If we need a strong drink, have it. Take a bath, take that walk, call a friend, skip the exercise, order out, get a babysitter. We are all in this together. It is imperative that we allow ourselves to be real and to take care of ourselves so we have something else to give.

Author: dianegclark

Christ follower, Mom, grandma, wife, therapist, gym rat, reader, singer, coffee drinker, dog lover..... View all posts by dianegclark