Grateful

Feeling reflective this Thanksgiving morning as I sit here with my son in my kitchen, waiting for more family to arrive, food spread out ready to cook. I am reflecting on this year, remembering to be grateful. Then at New Year’s, I can put 2019 to rest. Seal it up forever. 2020 promises to be a year of new beginnings, risks, trust.

2019 has been a hard year. So much loss, so much change, so many realizations, so much growth. It has been filled with pain and reflection, brokenness, shame, and heartache. I have never experienced anything like this year and I hope I never do again. I will learn to be thankful for this period because I trust God that He means what He says that He will bring good out of bad, that He will finish the work He has started in me. At the end of everything, His love is all that endures. I am learning so much about trusting and leaning in.

I have so much to be grateful for, a family who loves me, grand babies who bring joy, happy and successful children, a husband who stands by me through everything, a beautiful home, a strong, healthy body, good finances, and many many who love me.

I truly have so much to look forward to. A book to publish. A musical venture to embark on with recording a concept album and hopefully performing. A new practice to start up. And so much more.

But I also find peace and joy in the little things, being so grateful for each moment. I count my blessings every single day. I look for the little ways that God shows me He loves me and He’s got me.