I started the tomixifen drug about 10 days ago.
Back in December when I was taken off estrogen replacement, I experienced lots of anxiety. I also cried a lot. Then I went through the radiation which exhausted me and lowered my immune system so I got sick. I was in menopause. It was rough.
But all the while, even with the diagnosis, I felt peace deep in my soul. I knew God had it under control and I trusted Him. I felt Him carrying me through.
Now the tomixifen, which blocks the remainder of estrogen that my body naturally makes, is causing huge symptoms of anxiety. It’s hard to explain to others how I can feel incredible physiological anxiety and be at perfect peace at the same time. On Sunday morning it was particularly bad. I had hoped to try to lead one of the songs but decided not to. Someone asked me if I planned to sing at all. Nothing will keep me from it!
I did go to the dr yesterday and he prescribed a medication to calm these symptoms, which is helping me sleep and helping my body feel calm, calming my racing thoughts.
But I feel at peace in my soul. God loves me. He’s in control even when I can’t see. I get to sing about it on Sunday. 
dianegclark 