People comment on my positive outlook and grateful heart. That’s real but in the spirit of being truly genuine, I do have bad days too. Days when discouragement sets in and the tears flow.
Today is day 15 of radiation and day five in bed with flu/bronchitis. My skin at the radiation site is red and itchy and blistery. Tomorrow is halfway through the treatments. I started to feel normal and energetic at the beginning of last week then this flu that turned into bronchitis hit on Thursday. I didn’t get to sing this weekend or even go to church. If I see another episode of Property Brothers I’m gonna scream. I went to treatment this morning then for a blood draw. I have two calls to make to schedule more tests and appointments. Being a patient is getting old. I’m wearing a hole in my insurance card. Don’t even get me started on the bills. People at work are being very patient with me but my clients are being neglected.
So what do I do on bad days when discouragement hits? First, I let the tears flow. Sometimes you just gotta have a good cry. I reach out to people close to me who don’t feel like they need to fix it and I just tell them how I feel. They tell me it’s ok, that it’s gonna be ok. I do worship and pray and read His word even if I don’t feel like it. Sometimes He can’t get through my humanness to encourage me but He always lets me know He’s here. I always step up the self care. And I try to grab onto something to be grateful for. Last night it was this pic and text from my son in law to be: 
He said here’s me and Sierra sending you love to get through this.
I took another day off work to recover.
Here’s my power breakfast:
So on those bad days, I just let them happen. He gives us just enough grace for each day. Tomorrow is a new day. I’m trusting Him for it.
dianegclark 